The Panda Pixie in Heels

Thinking about it why would someone name their site "The Panda Pixie in Heels"? For someone trying to find a platform where he  (or she for that matter) can express oneself in all possible ways (and be taken seriously at that), some may say it is not wise to incorporate the words Panda and Pixie, right? In fact even the heels don't make much sense for others. But, they are that. Words that do not make much sense when used separately to describe what this place is for me. But together? Well, it's all very fitting AND it makes one kick-ass of a name if you ask me, LOL!

A panda is neither glamorous nor anything close to classy (but they sure as pie drop dead cuties!) A pixie, what is a pixie? According to my dear friend Google a pixie is well, a little fairy, child-like and fun loving. As for heels? For some, they say it is a contraption invented to make women (and their feet) miserable, but for people like me, a good pair can supply you with the confidence needed to make you feel like you can conquer the world, and at times they give you a certain air of authority and command when things seem overwhelming.

So why the Panda Pixie in Heels? 

I have always had a fascination with pandas; their oh so adorable, and if only its not illegal I would have taken one (or two) for a pet. Add the fact that people close to me refer to me as a panda (I guess its 'cause I have noticeable dark circles around my eyes?) Haha! Their colors attract me too, even if some may just think of pandas as cute (and usually it stops there), it goes beyond that for me. I have always been fascinated with black and white EVERYTHING (black and white photos, black and white themes, etc), in a way you can say that panda for me (aside from adoring them to bits because of their cuteness) represents my fascination for black and white. As for the pixie, well there is a story behind that. At 23 I find myself (a small town girl) trying to make a living here in the big city, finding my way, and little by little pushing myself to become a 'grown up' version of who I was before. Being here I realized many things, one of which is I will always be at kid. A kid at heart perhaps, but a kid nonetheless. I will always be a little girl who believes in fairy tales and miracles, that there is good in everything and everyone (and believe me this one here ain't advisable when your in the big city, you will be eaten), a little girl who constantly misses the GROWN UPS in her world because their far away, a little girl who oftentimes rears a stubborn head when they ARE around. A little girl wanting nothing but to search what it truly means to be happy from the little to the big things in life, a little girl, thus the pixie. As for the heels, high heels to be exact, in all honesty I just love them! Growing up I couldn't wait to wear my own pair, when the time came that I was finally allowed to wear my very own high heels shoes, they hurt like hell. But even with that knowledge, I still find the same level of adoration for them. And so until this day (and probably all the tomorrows my feet and legs will allow me to wear a pair) I shall forever and always find myself gaga over them. But aside from this, another reason is they lift you up. Not just in height (especially for me since I'm short), they lift you up in a sense that a pair can supply you with that extra push you need when confidence seem to be fleeting. And it can force you to ooze poise and composure (or else you will fall flat on your face). For me wearing a pair of heels is like having superpowers. But hey, that's just me. And so again, why the Panda Pixie in Heels? Because I am the Panda Pixie in Heels. A clumsy little girl with a fascination for black and white trying to walk her way into and through the big world. Hello, nice to meet you. :)

I chose this name for this little experiment I have; it's nothing big, it's not even something some may say warrants attention and demands writer's glory. The main purpose of this site is to share the little (and big) things that takes place in my world. A glimpse of what transpires in my black and white world in all its vibrant (and sometimes dull) colors. To be able to share, and in a way see if I still can write a likable piece now and then, while expressing it in a way that screams ME, well I guess that's what an experiment is for right? To see what comes out of it. And so we'll see. :) 

Wish me luck!